I have the greatest respect for you and your work.
However, if you want to be a model, you are going to be judged harshly and soley on your image as it appears in photographs. Nothing more and nothing less.
If that is potentially going to make you cry or get upset or withdraw from life as we know it, then modeling is probably not for you (her).
We get so friendly with folks, we like each other, blah blah blah blah...but when it all comes down to the final cut, models get judged on how well they appear on camera. If thats a problem, its the wrong place to be.
Sadly many of the models we meet are very insecure and that is the worst thing for them, but thats the way of the world of modeling.